Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Girdles, Femininity & Sissy Feelings


".....Imposing, certainly, and demanding. Pour yourself in and cinch it. A promise not to jiggle or shake. A promise to aspire to feminine shapes, to adjust the ratio of your belly to your hip, to believe in one perfect female ideal."    Amy Larocca, New York Observer 1/24/00
 Beautiful words aren't they?  Especially when read by a submissive and feminized sissy male like myself who has been trained by a Dominant Wife to look as attractive and feminine for Her as possible.  i've been in many a control panty before, but the girdle and corset hold a certain feminine and submissive mystique to me that's difficult to describe. 

As i contemplate my fate when it comes to whether or not i will serve Jake again as His submissive sissy, my desire to look uber-femme for Him wants to include the wearing of a girdle or corset.  Not just any one, but something feminine and flattering.  Something confining enough to remind me of my girly efforts to look nice for Him. 

Even though girdles and corsets find their way onto many a Dominant Woman in the BDSM fetish world, a submissive male should never forget what these beautiful garments are intended to accomplish....

"All these items have one thing in common - they're designed to mold the wearer's body into a more pleasing shape, smoothing undesirable lumps and bumps whilst accentuating more feminine aspects, ultimately seeking to achieve an archetypal hourglass figure. In order to accomplish this, foundation wear imposes itself upon the wearer by means of constrictive or unyielding material, often enhanced with rigid boning to force the body into the desired shape. The degree of control exerted can range from light to severe depending on the design, but the fundamental principle remains the same whether a lightly elastic basque or a heavily boned corset is involved - unlike other underwear, it is the body that is shaped by foundation wear rather than the reverse."  Brassiered.com
"Forcing the body into the desired shape."....powerful words.  The Dominant's Desire?  The submissive's?  Both perhaps, with one obviously having the final say.  How feminine and shapely would they want me to appear?  How restrictive do they want the garment to be?  Would they even ask how it feels? my own girdle might feel far more restraining, restrictive and unyielding if perhaps say....i was mandated to wear it by Diane, Jake or someday, maybe even Paul....."Is sissy wearing her girdle like she's supposed to?" He might ask with His words dripping with contemptuous humiliation.  my answer to Him would be expected and mandatory, despite the obvious visible signs of the garment's effect on me - the girlish silhouette my body presents. 
"...Plus, starting today I want you girdled until after dinner. Nine hours minimum. So get your girdle on and get the dog out for his walk before it gets too hot. You have at least five pounds to go so you can have coffee and a piece of toast for breakfast and a nice salad for lunch. Now get cracking.” With that Hannah, beautifully naked went to take her bath.   A Man in my Position
 A beautiful position to be in; "girdled" nine hours per day minimum.  It's an exercise to please his Dominant Wife Hannah. 

i'm suddenly jealous of this man's position.  His wife doesn't seem to have a lover and consequently, he receives so much of Her attention and Dominance.  i on the other hand know full well that i share Diane with Paul.  My submissiveness and femininity, along with all the duties and responsibilities that come with it, is always expected regardless of how much or how little attention i am paid.

love,

sissy terri

Monday, September 29, 2014

Sissy Silence

i'm terribly sorry for the silence here the past week.  It's not 100% intentional.  i'm in a bit of a confused sissy state right now and need to sort a few things out about exactly what it is i want. 

No, it's not so serious as to threaten my marriage to Diane.  Her love for me isn't, not has it ever been in question. 

It goes a little deeper than that and i'll share it with all of you soon.  i apologize for the ambiguity and vagueness of all of this, but before i write about it i have to make some decisions about how i want to proceed with certain aspects of my life.

In the meantime, enjoy a few lovely sissy pictures :)

You all know how much i love pretty bra and panty sets....

Frilly Lacy Love
And little girly panties....

My Lesbian Love
And panties with pretty backseams :)

Luxury Lingerie and Shapewear Collection
love,

sissy terri

Monday, September 22, 2014

The Sissy Waiting Game

It's been a weekend of "waiting."  Waiting is a pretty common activity for submissives i would say.  i did plenty of it this weekend and am still doing it.

Diane took advantage of my absence on Saturday to schedule a date with Paul at their usual location:  our house and bedroom.  It's not that She needs my permission or has to wait for me to be away to invite Paul over, it's just that She knew i'd be gone for most of the day.

i played in a charity golf tournament that had an 8 AM shotgun start.  It was a four-man scramble with a total of 144 golfers; two teams on every hole.  If you've played in something like that you know it's going to be a long round.  It also included lunch, door prizes, raffles, etc.  i wasn't ready to leave until close to 3 PM.  Problem was, i hadn't received Diane's permission to return home yet.

i stayed at the club, showered (careful not to reveal my panties in what was fortunately for me a deserted locker room), watched some college football in the bar area and waited for a text from Diane.  It came a little bit after 4.  "Hurry home" is all it said.  No more than twenty minutes later i was down between Her thighs, completing the obligatory cuckold cleaning that happens after the lover's gone.  my own pleasure had to wait until Diane was totally pleased, both sexually and with my cleanup of Her privates.

There's also another piece of waiting going on.  Diane hasn't yet given me permission to get together with Jake.  This morning She assured me Her decision was imminent.  "Don't be so impatient" She said with a laugh.  i have he feeling She is going to let me see Jake.  At least that's how She's acting.  She just seems to be enjoying the "waiting game" She's making me play.

In the meantime, Jake's been peppering me with saucy and sexy emails, hinting that he can't wait to have me put a lovely lipstick ring on his cock!  Those type of things drive me crazy and test my patience.  He's also hinted at some spankings, light bondage and even more.  i hope Diane's decision comes soon....very soon.

Here's a collection of very pretty panties i just re-posted on my tumblr page.  Think Jake would like to see me in some of these?  i know i'd love wearing them :)






love,

sissy terri

Friday, September 19, 2014

My Bisexual Sissy Urges

It's been months since i've been with a man but my bisexual urges and fantasies haven't lessened at all.  If you recall, Diane decided that She didn't want me to be having an "affair" with Jake or any other man.  When that happened back in February, i was growing frustrated with Jake and his "on again off again" need for bi sex.  When he was in the mood it was very good.  When he wasn't, i wouldn't hear from him for weeks.

Just prior to Diane's decision i was also corresponding with a man named Howard.  He seemed like a great guy and the type of Dom i was looking for.  Unfortunately, i couldn't proceed with Howard and told him so.  i even told him why.  Howard thought i was a very lucky submissive. 

A couple of weeks ago, Jake contacted me again via email and asked me to give him a call.  i used to see him at the gym once and awhile but i hadn't seem him there in months either.  i was reluctant to call him and procrastinated about it.  i decided i would but thought it best that i let Diane know first.  She had no objection to my calling him in response to his email.

i talked to Jake for more than an hour when i finally called.  A couple of things have changed in his life, giving him more free time to play golf and do other things.  And naturally, once again he's interested in meeting with me like we used to with assurances that this time it would be different.  He says he's had the urge for awhile, and it's not going away this time.  i have reason to be doubtful but, i also have reason to want to give it another try....if only i could.  "Let me think it over" is how i left it.  However, we both left the conversation very aroused.  He certainly knows how to make me feel sissy and femme when he wants to.

i talked to Diane about our conversation and Jake's request.  "Are you asking for permission to see him?" She asked.  i told Her i wasn't sure, but that if i wanted to, knew that i would need Her permission.  She told me to let Her know when i decided what i wanted to do.

We had a follow up discussion about it last night and i told Her that i'd like to give it another try with Jake and asked for permission.  i wasn't totally surprised that She said "yes" though i was certainly prepared for a "no" answer.  But with Diane, nothing is as simple as it seems.  She's going to allow me to see Jake, but not just yet.  "I'll let you know when you can start seeing him" is what She told me.  In the meantime, i'm supposed to tell him i'm still mulling it over if he asks. 

i don't know how long Diane is going to make me wait, nor do i know why She's doing so.  If i didn't have to wait, i would probably call Jake and invite him over today.  i'm home alone and would dress in anything he wanted.  i'm aching to please him. 

i'm hoping that he's going to be as dominant and as charming as he sounded on the phone when we talked.  i know he can be.  i want to feel his hands roaming over me.  i want him to put me over his lap and spank me.  i want to drop to my knees and please him.   My list of wants is long, very long.

i hope Diane doesn't make me wait too long.

love,

sissy terri

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Accepting my Submission

It was an up and down weekend for me.  i did some wonderful "wifey" things for and with Diane and had some awesome intimate time with Her.  It was more time than i would have expected considering it was Her weekend to be on call. 

Diane didn't get to spend any face to face time with Her lover Paul, but they did get a chance to talk a few times over the phone.  i was privy to  two of those conversations.  During one of them, i was giving Diane a pedicure and when it was over had to sit patiently at Her feet until their phone call was over.  It lasted nearly an hour.

The phone call weaved back and forth between highly erotic talk and work-related talk.  Sometimes the two subjects blended and there was also small social talk.  Diane's insistence that i listen passively and remain still and quiet throughout just added another layer of submissiveness to my already highly sub nature, or whatever you want to call it.  i've done this before but on Sunday, i found it more difficult than usual.

What happened later in the day was difficult for me as well.  The two of us were in bed together and i was thoroughly enjoying the taste of Diane, relishing Her reactions to my kisses, nibbles, licking and sucking between Her thighs.  She was definitely enjoying it more than She usually does and that got me even more aroused than i usually am.

She had several mini orgasms before a wonderful climax.  Her satisfaction was evident and She went out of Her way to thank me for being so attentive to Her needs.  All of this made me want Her so much.  i was highly excited and eventually did something totally out of character.  As i knelt between Her legs holding my penis (which i had slid out of one of the leg openings of the panties i was wearing) i smiled at Diane and slowly let the tip of it slide back and forth over the lips of Her vagina.  "May i" i asked Her.

Before i tell you what happened, let me say that it's been more than three years since i had intercourse with Diane.  My readers have probably assumed that it had been a long time and know that i don't make love to Her that way anymore.  So it's not news but it's still difficult to admit.  i periodically do have those "regular male urges" but am not allowed to act on them.  Sunday was no different.

Diane was quick to rebuke my masculine advance and even quicker to remind me of my status as Her "wife."  "Wives don't act that way" She said as She pushed me away lightly.  "You know you're not allowed there anymore.  What's gotten into you anyway?"  i apologized and felt foolish.

"You can stroke yourself softly and squirt on my tummy like a good sissy" She said.  The sex ended with my ejaculating onto Her smooth skin and cleaning it all up. 

Later as i was preparing a light dinner, Diane came into the kitchen area and handed me one of myfrilliest aprons. 

"You need to start looking more like a wife" She said with a smile.  "I think it must be time for your period.  You seem a little moody.  Check the calendar.  You must be due to start."

She was correct.  She had already circled Monday as the day i was due to start my period. 

Diane's immediate rejection of my request to make love to Her like a "husband" would was not unexpected though it may come across as shocking to some readers.   When you are caught up in the heat of passion such rejections are difficult.  They sting and it sometimes takes a few days to get over.

However, emotionally i always seem to resolve things with myself; happy that i'm submissive to a beautiful wife who loves me for who i am.

love,

sissy terri

Friday, September 12, 2014

Just Like a Good Wife

Diane is on call this weekend so She's not going to be around that much.  Earlier this morning, just before She left for the office She suggested we stay home tonight and have a quiet evening together.  This was contrary to what She'd decided last night when we planned to go out for a movie and late dinner. 

The tone in Her voice was unmistakable.  She was strongly hinting that She wanted a romantic evening together.  A romantic evening between a normal couple and one between a Dominant Wife and Her sissy cuckold husband are very different and similar at the same time.  Their differences are quite obvious and so are the similarities.  In our case, they're probably identical with the exception that the roles are reversed.

Diane's tone may have been unmistakable, but She went one step further by telling me that i could choose the strap-on i wanted Her to wear and to have it ready when She got home. 

"Get yourself ready too.  Nice and pretty for me."  Those were Her last instructions. 

i've written about "sissy primping" before, and i'll be doing plenty of that this afternoon.  i haven't decided what to wear but i'll have several options ready to go.  i'm hoping Diane gives me a call or sends me a text this afternoon when She has a moment or two.  If She does i'll probably get some idea of how She wants me to dress. 

She might want me to be immediately ready for a quick getaway to the bedroom, or maybe relaxing together with a glass of wine in just a pair of bra and panties.  Maybe She'll want me totally dressed, or in a swimsuit for a splash in the pool before we fool around.  Those are my immediate thoughts, but there are many other possibilities as well. 

Whatever She wants, or whatever i'm allowed to decide on my own, there will be plenty of sissy primping on my part.

It's something i enjoy and look forward to.  Having a Dominant Wife to primp for is the dream of every sissy.  Maybe not every sissy i'm sure it is for those of us who are married.  Some of us also fantasize about what it would be like to do all that primping for a man.  Just like a wife does for her husband.

Here's a pretty picture of a woman doing just that...

Domesticated Wife

  i enjoyed the picture but was also smitten by the beautiful comment that was added beneath it:

"Taking care of my general appearance, my grooming and all the little details that make a woman desirable, it is an obligation and not only a pleasure or a sign of vanity.

It must be this way to be always pleasing to the eye of my husband, to make him feel good and he’s proud of me.

Whether you're doing it for a Dominant Wife, a husband or any other partner, do it as best as you can.  i will.  i want to be the best wife i can.  

love,

sissy terri

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Sissy Cuckold Wednesdays

In addition to being "cuckold day" here on Wednesdays, it's also the day that our recycling is picked up by Waste Management.  The recycling truck comes pretty early, sometimes as early as 6:45 AM.  Naturally, it's been my job to roll it out to the end of the driveway the night before and roll the recycling bin back into the garage after it's been picked up.

It's one of the few times i wished that we had a shorter driveway.  It's length and the seclusion it provides does have benefits in a lifestyle like ours.

At least Diane doesn't make me wear heels to put out and return the recycle bin!

love,

sissy terri