Friday, August 29, 2014

Sissy Summer Fun

The privacy we enjoy in our home makes being a sissy much easier for me.  We're not necessarily secluded, but because of the elevation of our property, the angle of the house and its style, no one can really see into our backyard unless they were using some binoculars or a telescope!  Now that's a thought.

Because of this privacy, whenever  i go into the pool i'm usually wearing a ladies swimsuit and they're usually a one piece.  Even though i'm pretty slim, i like the one piece styles that have a slimming effect on me.  Yesterday, a suit i ordered from "Spanx"arrived and i'm looking forward to wearing it this weekend.

i thought it was going to be an extremely quiet holiday weekend but Diane's already made a couple of plans.  One of them is having Her friend Linda over on Sunday for dinner.  i'm out to Linda as Diane's submissive and she's also seen me dressed several times.  This weekend won't be any different as Diane expects me to prepare dinner - "nothing fancy" - and to join them for drinks when they lounge by the pool.  "A nice time to show us your new swimsuit" She said.

Sure Linda's seen me dressed and knows most everything about our relationship, but i'm still going to experience some self-consciousness.  Just thinking about it gives me some angst and yet there's some arousal.  The bathing suit fits nicely and is really form fitting.  i hope it's restrictive enough to hide whatever arousal happens when i'm wearing it in front of Linda!

love,

sissy terri

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Sissy Femininity

My being away for the day seems opportune for Diane and Paul to have the house to themselves today, but Paul is out of town.  Diane's cravings for a "real man" might have to wait as much as another week.  i understand i can't and won't fill that void, but She knows i'm available to provide Her with pleasure as best as i can, in the ways that i can.

In the meantime here are a few pictures that, when i first saw them, made me think about how sissies like me (raise your hand out there if you're like me...lol), might view femininity differently than the real women in their lives, or even real men.

There's plenty that's pretty about this picture.  i love the matching bra and panties but i'm also intrigued by the pink phone.  Which one would make the more significant sissy statement in your home?


i love being a sissy wife and doing all the domestic chores that come with it.  The chores can become quite tedious at times though.  What if we were required to use a clothesline instead of a dryer?  Putting our femininity on display for the neighbors to see could be pretty thrilling!


Sometimes i see a panty that catches my eye.  This panty is one of them.  Anything with pink catches my attention but maybe it's the pink/black combo along with the lace and ruffles that make these special.  Whatever it is, i'm sure i stared at them longer than any woman would!


High heels and little girl ruffled anklet socks?  Whew...very sissy.


love,

sissy terri

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Living as a Wife

If you've read this blog for any length of time, you know that for the most part i live as my Dominant Wife Diane's "wife."  i do most of the housework, laundry and cooking (everything that is not done by our housekeeper who comes in once per week) and our relationship is set up so that i defer to Her on all household decisions.  i'm Her submissive sissy cuckold.  Our relationship is not much more complicated than that.

What makes everything complex is me and my emotions, fantasies, bisexual cravings and various fetishes.  i love being submissive but have a difficult time dealing with the emotional roller coaster that sometimes comes with it, especially when it comes to cuckolding.  Relinquishing all authority to my Wife also restricts my ability to fulfill my bi fantasies, and that's a big thing.  Diane understands and hasn't ruled out allowing me to see a man that meets Her approval.  But right now i'm not free to do that.

i'd love to dress just to please a Dominant Man
Just today, a follower of mine sent me the following note on my tumblr email.  i absolutely loved the note because it describes a situation i've often thought about:  being a submissive wife to a dominant man.  Here's what the note said in part....

"I think you would love to become the housewife of a man and every part of your life organised and devoted to pleasing him with no thoughts to your own pleasure. Even what you wear is no longer your choosing. It will be selected in advance some smart, some humiliating some kinky and some down right degrading but all to gain pleasure to your man." 

The more i read the note, the more i realize that it's 100% correct, so strong are my bisexual urges.  However, i'd never want to leave Diane for such a life.  That's the inner struggle someone like me, a submissive bisexual sissy, lives with most days.  i want, but can't have, the best of both worlds.

love,

sissy terri

Monday, August 18, 2014

If They Could See Me Now

It's a very "housewifey" type of day today.  Some laundry, errands, grocery shopping and a little housework.  Even though we have a cleaning lady that comes in once a week, some things remain my sole responsibility. 

As i strut about in my dress, pump and aprons going about my duties, i sometimes wonder what some friends of mine would think if they saw me this way.  Especially friends from the past that I've remained in contact with even though we're now more than two thousand miles away.  Those that remember me from my childhood years or as a young professional when i wasn't nearly as submissive as i am now. 

Being "outed" for who you really are is a difficult thing.  Other than Jake, the only person i've been totally outed to is Diane's friend Linda.  i suppose i should qualify that.  Linda knows i dress, that i'm submissive to Diane and that i know about Diane's relationship with Paul.  i don't know that Linda knows all the inner workings of our relationship, like that i'm now having my "period" and am wearing a tampon!

It was difficult when i was first outed and when Linda saw me fully dressed.  No matter how much you prepare for it it's hard to deal with.  But i got over it.  Diane told me i was making a big deal about it for nothing and as usual, She was correct. 

i have no intention of living full time as a female, nor do i want people i've known for a long time to find out about our private life.  But people who would disown you as a friend over something like that are probably not the type of people you want as real friends anyway. 

love,

sissy terri

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Altoids, Riding Crops & Tampons

i had to take a few days off from blogging because of an unexpected business trip to the west coast.  i also stayed there an extra day to visit a former colleague of mine who is now retired and living just outside of San Diego.  i got home last night, just in time to start my period.  Diane had the tampons and pads waiting for me when i arrived.  Any escape i have from being Her sissy wife is always temporary and never a return to full masculinity.

While i was away, Diane and Paul did have an opportunity to get together here yesterday afternoon, with the whole house to themselves, much as they did on Wednesday afternoon while i was out playing golf with some friends.  It was a hot afternoon on the golf course, but probably even hotter in the master bedroom back home.

i came home immediately after Diane texted me.  "Coast is clear" She wrote, meaning that Paul was leaving or had already left.  i was about 15 minutes away enjoying a cold drink in the club.  i excused myself and promptly went home.

Unless you've gone through the experience, it's hard to describe the emotions that run through you when you return to your house, enter the bedroom and view your wife along with the remnants of the lovemaking She's enjoyed with Her lover.  There's the sheets strewn all over the bed, pillows on the floor and your Wife laying there on the bed that may contain one or more wet spots as evidence of their lovemaking.

There are other things that might even be around that provide evidence of the kind of sex they had.  Prominently displayed on the nightstand was a riding crop.  It's a toy we've had for a long time, a toy that Diane's used on me.  This time i knew that Paul had used it on Diane.  i didn't have to see (although i couldn't help but notice) Her beautiful bottom with red swats on it to know She wasn't the one wielding the crop.  Diane had submitted to Paul that afternoon, making me feel even more submissive than usual. 

Next to the crop sat an opened and half empty box of peppermint flavored Altoids.  The powerfully flavored candies weren't used as breath mints; that much i knew.  Diane told me Paul likes the feeling they provide after She's had a few of them and puts his cock in Her mouth.

It was now my turn to have a few of the mints.  Diane loves them as much as Paul does when i lick Her.  Despite their strong minty taste, the taste of Paul's semen was still present and powerful; another reminder of my cuckold status.  i finished my duties by kissing and licking Diane's reddened bottom for a very long time. 

"It's been quite a satisfying afternoon" Diane said after enjoying the second orgasm She had from my oral attention.  She also allowed me to cum while i licked Her bottom.  Slowly moving my sissy clitty back and forth against the sheets while i tongued Her butt led to my own orgasm.

Satisfied with me, Diane got up and showered while i changed the bed sheets.  There were several wet spots on the sheets.  At least one of them was mine. 

love,

sissy terri

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

A Look Ahead

One of the blogs i check out on a regular basis is Stana's Femulate, a tremendous resource to the CD and transgender community.  And once and awhile i check out some of the blogs on Stana's blog list, especially if the title of a blog's latest post piques my interest. 

Well, Stana's got another blog called As The Worm Turns which features "Notes and artifacts from the Post-Patriarchal era."  How can this NOT be interesting to sissies.  Here's a picture of what appeared in her latest post. 


Don't you just love it?  i guess there's lots to look forward to.  Thanks Stana!

love,

sissy terri

Monday, August 11, 2014

A Sissy Love Note

i went to the gym rather early this morning and Diane had already left for the office when i got back home.  When i got home, the first thing i noticed was that She had left me a note.  Notes like this always make my day.

Good morning my beautiful wife,
I left out some panties for you to wear after your shower.  Have a good sissy day!
Love
Diane

Short and very sweet.  i think it's little things like this that help make what's a rather "different" relationship work for us.

love,

sissy terri