Friday, October 31, 2014

A Steford Sissy Wife

i've always been fascinated with (and fantasized about) the whole notion of being a "Stepford Wife."  The idea of being a submissive and docile "wife" is no doubt a fantasy of many sissies like me.  The novel by Ira Levin that was published in 1972 has helped to popularize that perfect combination of submissiveness and femininity. 

Yesterday i came across a reference on the web that led me to this link to some of photographer's Christine McConnell's work.  i had some of her stuff but didn't pay much attention most of the time.  However one of the photos that was featured in the piece i saw yesterday was enough to get my undivided attention.  It was this "1950s-style, Stepford Wives-inspired self-portrait."


According to the commentary under the photo, the picture is noteworthy because it "showcased all of her talents: modeling, painting, sewing, baking, styling hair and makeup, and photographing."  No doubt she's certainly a lady who's talented in some very traditional feminine tasks.

Seeing the photo was very timely and coincidental for me.  This week i spent time at Jake's house, doing housework, tidying up and making sure the house was in perfect order when he got home.  Like a good Stepford Wife, i served him his favorite beer and snacks before i knelt by his side ready to pleasure him.

Pictures like this and other 1950's style housewife photos, art and stories help put me in the proper feminine and submissive mindset that make doing housework and pleasing Diane or Jake more enjoyable for me.

Housework and other similar chores that are my responsibility aren't always enjoyable.  In a fantasy world they are, but in reality they aren't.  Dressing properly, getting into the correct frame of mind and accepting and embracing my status makes it easier and femininely fulfilling.

love,

sissy terri

Thursday, October 30, 2014

my Time in Chastity

It's been about three weeks since my CB-3000 arrived.  It's not a long time, but enough for me to start getting used to wearing it.  For Diane, it's also been enough time to start establishing some rules and a regular routine that i'm expected to follow.

Her purchase of the CB-3000 was to initially set a caveat for my seeing Jake:  i wouldn't be allowed to see him unless i was wearing the CB-3000.  Now that i've had an opportunity to get used to wearing it and without much discomfort, Diane's expanded Her demands.

With little exception (there haven't been any thus far) Diane's expectation is that i will be in chastity whenever i'm not with Her.  Since this new protocol has begun, i haven't yet had to travel on business so that hasn't been a problem.  When asked about that all Diane said was that She'd "come up with something that will work for both of us."

Diane doesn't insist that i wear the CB-3000 to bed, so since She started these new rules i'm locked into the CB in the morning after i shower and before She leaves and let out at night before bedtime.   i've gone to the gym while in the CB and even played a round of golf.  Interestingly, the first round of golf I played while in chastity took place yesterday afternoon while Diane was hosting Her lover Paul here.  It was their regular Wednesday afternoon tryst.

Wearing it to the gym hasn't posed the problems i thought it would.  There's been little discomfort.  And it's not unusual for me to come home and shower here after my workouts.  Same thing with golf.  i used to shower at the club once and awhile, but my not doing so isn't going to raise any suspicions with friends or anyone else.  My golf game didn't seem to be affected either.  It might have even prevented me from "over-swinging" and  help to keep the ball in play!

It's no surprise however that the most uncomfortable times are when i'm submissively pleasuring either Diane or Jake.  Serving them is very arousing and gets me into a very physically high state of arousal.

As medical professionals, both of us are careful about things we do and eat and about lifestyle choices.  There's not a lot of research and data about the long term effects of chastity on men (or on women for that matter).  Like many things, moderation and listening to your body is important.  Wearing a chastity device while in a state of arousal can cause some pain and that's something to be aware of.  By not wearing it at night, i don't have to worry about the compression my CB would cause from uncontrolled nocturnal erections.

i found this interesting article written by the well known sex writer Dan Savage.  Savage's column, "Savage Love" appears in many places.  In this particular column Dan answers this reader's question:  "Can locking my penis in a chastity device cause long term damage?"  Pretty interesting.  The suggestion that serious chastity players get a more expensive custom made belt is a good one.  Maybe down the road.  The biggest drawback there is that all the custom made ones i've seen are in stainless steel.  Diane is insistent on a pink colored belt.  No surprise. 

Diane is actually the one that found this article and had me read it.  When we were talking about it She couldn't help but tease me about the urologist whose primary concern was "the long term health and preservation of erectile function down the road."  She couldn't help Herself and had to ask me why, as a sissy, would i have a need for erectile function anyway!

Ouch!

love,

sissy terri

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

A Woman's Touch

This post is so way overdue.  There's just so much to tell you while at the same time plenty of ambiguity.

Late yesterday afternoon, alone at Jake's house, i applied the finishing touches of my lipstick (the bright red color that he likes best) in his master bathroom; the one he shared with his wife until their breakup.  i'd arrived there shortly before noon and let myself in.  i had chores to do and orders to getmyself all prettied up and waiting for him when he got home from work.

Putting on makeup and dressing up takes on a whole different level of importance when you're doing it to please someone else.  It's done with a care and attention to detail that just isn't present when you're just doing it for your own enjoyment or necessity.  It's one of those things that puts me in a deeper subspace than i already feel.  

He was leaving the office early so he could be home to see the first pitch of last night's Game 6 of the World Series.  On the way to his house i'd stopped to pick up his favorite beer and snacks.

The list of chores wasn't long, but enough to keep me busy most of the afternoon.  There was laundry to do, some ironing, dusting, cleaning the bathrooms and just regular tidying up of the house.  With his wife gone, Jake also decided that a "cleaning lady" might not be needed.  He thought i might be interested in the job.  He was right.

I was thinking that the house needs a woman's touch" he told me.  "Someone to keep it clean, nicely decorated, I'm sure you know what I mean."  He said this while i was on my knees pleasing him just the way he likes it, nice and slow.  No heavy sucking and taking him real deep until i can tell he's ready.  i'm getting better at sensing what he enjoys and when he enjoys it.

i knelt there licking and sucking him as he continued talking to me, holding my head firmly in place and running his hands through the black wig i was wearing.  His hands on my head were an indication that i was to listen while he talked.  "I just wonder if you can maintain two households.  I know you're Diane's wife but I'd like a similar situation.  Within her guidelines of course."

His words, my thoughts and the sensations i got from kissing, licking and sucking his cock and balls created a very painful situation between my legs.  The pink chastity belt i wore never felt so tight and restrictive.  Diane's rules haven't changed.  Each time i'm with Jake, i have to be in chastity.  Her demands coupled with Jake's indifference to my locked state have made me feel more submissive than i ever have.

When i'm with Jake, my pleasure comes only from serving him.  Since we've been together again, i've yet to experience an orgasm while i'm with him.  Conversely, he's had plenty of them.

Shortly before 5 PM my cell phone rang.  Jake was calling to tell me he was almost home and wanted me to greet him at the door in just my bra, panties and some heels.  i had to make some adjustments, careful not to mess my makeup or my wig.  i checked in the mirror one last time to make sure i looked my best.

The beer was cold and the snacks were ready.  The house was sparkling.  i'd even bought some fresh flowers and put them in a vase in the foyer just outside the den where he'd be watching the game.   i wondered if he'd notice?  Would it matter if he did or not?  i waited patiently for him, feeling a little silly in my bra and panties, the bra i wore filled with some silicone inserts to give me a more feminine look.  

My self-consciousness gave way to a feeling of anxiety when i heard the garage door open.  Should i be on my knees when he arrived?  Or should i just be standing by the door waiting?  He gave me no specific instructions.  My instincts told me i should rush to greet him but i didn't want to appear to "aggressive."

He walked through the door and i moved towards him.  "Wow.  Pretty sexy" he said ad he pulled me close to him.  He felt much stronger this time around.  He'd been working out and it showed.  He gave me a peck on the tip of my nose and said he didn't want to smear my lipstick.   "It will be smeared soon enough" he laughed.  "Now get me a beer."

He went into the den and i got him his beer and put some snacks on the table by his favorite chair.  He took the remote, turned on the television and laid back.  i dropped to my knees in front of him and waited.  i didn't wait long before he told me what he wanted.

My lipstick was indeed smeared soon enough.  It was smeared more than once.  While he watched the game, i brought him to orgasm three times, refreshing my makeup after each orgasm turned my face into quite a mess....a mess any sissy would love.

love,

sissy terri

Monday, October 20, 2014

Surrounded by Femininity

Our household was oozing with femininity this weekend.  As part of the preparations for my daughter's wedding next year, our two daughters were here along with four of the five bridesmaids who will be part of the wedding party!  Naturally our lifestyle takes a back burner when our daughters are around but that doesn't mean that Diane is any less in charge.  It's just not noticeable. 

There was plenty of shopping and bridal related tasks for all the girls to do which did give me some free time to see Jake.  That's a story for later this week; serving him while in chastity is more difficult than i thought it would be and also emotionally and psychologically challenging.

The Sissy Brides
All the girls are gone and it's back to "normal" for the rest of the week.

Whenever the upcoming wedding is discussed, planned, or like this weekend, taking up almost 100% of our time, my sissy mind can't help fantasize about being a bride.  i've written about it numerous times here and the fantasy never, ever goes away.

There's just so many beautiful bridal fashions out there i truly don't know where i would begin if i ever had the opportunity to be a real bride. No wonder brides-to-be take so long to make a decision
about what they'll wear on their big day!

i know i'd be more traditional and want something very elegant and feminine.  However, i would also like to try on as many gowns as possible :)

love,

sissy terri

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Pajama Party

All of my deep sissy fantasies don't necessarily involve sex.  Some are just girly things that i've never had a chance to experience.

One of these would be an old fashioned pajama party with other girls (or gurls)!  When i was younger, my older sisters would either have or attend these.  They didn't intrigue me until i got a little older and by then, their rooms were "off limits" to me and all i could hear was the laughing and giggling that went on.

As i grew older, i fantasized about what it would be like to be included or invited to these parties.  i'd fantasize about what i'd wear and what all the other girls would be wearing, what we'd talk about, the games we would play, etc.  i still fantasize about it.

i now wonder what a pajama party for sissies would be like?  Maybe i should throw one?  i wonder if Diane would let me?  Who would i invite?

Baby doll pajamas would be required!

love,

sissy terri

Monday, October 13, 2014

A Sissy's True Confessions

i didn't go into great detail in my last post about the conversation i had with Jake last Thursday.  The more we talked, the more comfortable i got and i ended up sharing quite a few things with him that i never thought i'd be able to.  Most important is that i did this with Diane' permission. 

It was a huge step for me.  It also makes me feel better about myself and about not hiding anything.  i didn't plan it this way but Jake knows about 1) this blog, 2) my tumblr blog and 3) Diane and my Female Led Relationship and 4) Her cuckolding me.  Naturally, by knowing about either numbers 1or 2, Jake would have figured out both numbers 3 and 4.

There's a sense of relief by telling him the truth.  i feel less anxious about things.  Rather than lead him on that Diane doesn't know about certain things while She actually does, Jake now knows everything.  Like i said, i didn't originally plan it this way but happy it turned out like it did.  i didn't write about this yesterday because after we parted on Thursday, i told Jake to take some time to read the blog and to call me after he was done.  There are many posts and i figured it would take some time.  When i posted yesterday, he hadn't called me back yet.

i got that call today.  Naturally, he has many, many questions.  Who wouldn't have?  But the good news is that he saw nothing that would cause him to change his mind about us getting together again and developing a regular relationship.  i was very nervous about that even though he had already told me he doubted anything would change his mind.  But the reassurance i got this morning was very welcome.

He was amazed at my tumblr blog and said that he loves the insight it gives him into my sissy fantasies!  That led me to tell him something else, something i don't post about either here (i may have a few times) or on my tumblr.  i told Jake that whenever i see pictures that portray women as very submissive to a man, i see myself in that picture and want to be the woman!  It happens all the time.  It could be a woman on a leash being led by a man, a woman in bondage serving a man or other various types of D/s scenarios involving Male Doms and female subs.

"Well, you should either start posting them somewhere or send me the pictures you like" Jake said.  Wow....he might be sorry he said that.  i may be inundating his inbox with pictures/ideas.  i also might become a little more liberal in what i post on my blogs!

love,

sissy terri

Sunday, October 12, 2014

A Sissy in Chastity

i haven't been able to post because of some personal commitments both Diane and i have had this weekend.  This one is also going to be a little short, but i've been dying to tell everyone that my meeting with Jake on Thursday went real well.  It wasn't rushed, we had time to talk privately so that i could tell him everything i wanted to and best of all, he was more than accepting of Diane's decision to insist on chastity when i see him.

Our meeting could be summed up very well in two short sentences he said to me:  "Why should I care if you're in chastity or not?  When we're together you'll be there to please me and your pleasure will be secondary."  It's the most dominant thin he's ever said to me.  It's evident that he wants to be far more dominant with me than he ever was before.

There's also another wrinkle that's changed things a bit since we last met.  Jake is getting divorced.  It will be final in a few weeks.  His divorce has nothing to do with his bisexual desires or me at all.  It's not even a nasty divorce.  It's an amicable break up and Jake is going to keep his house here, at least for now unless he decides it's just too big.  He teased that he's now going to need a "lady of the house" once and awhile and asked if i was interested!

The afternoon ended with my following him to his house.  We didn't have much time because i had something going on Thursday evening with Diane, but there was time enough for what he wanted.

After sliding down the pantyhose i was wearing and dropping my pink panties so he could check out my CB-3000, i dropped to my knees and took his cock into my mouth.  The combination of sucking his cock and being in chastity created as submissive a feeling as i've ever felt.

From Jake's reaction he enjoyed it plenty as well.  "It's been way too long" he said.  True.  It has.  Now that we're back together, this is going to be a regular thing.  i'm going to get used to serving in chastity -  both Diane and Jake.

love,

sissy terri